somethin happy for a change lol..

i was told by a friend of mine to blog somethin happy. Somethin not so emo not so deep and searching. But then again it somehow spurned me on to think of writtin abt a happiness tat never lasts... anyway this is an excerpt of an idea i hv...thanks to ya...

I thought of the times I was happy most. The times when we were together as a family. The times when we did things together. The times when I walked with a significant other and the times where i found pleasure in living the life i wanted. But the more I thought, the more this world sapped those memories away as I was clouded with an uncertainty and a certainty tat said you can keep tryin to be happy...LIfe never seemed so like the movies where the dreams u dreamed brought u to the life u willed. WHere childish imaginations would take you to the moon and maybe one day to the stars. Where wishful thinking could bring a lover a million miles frm here to ur doorstep. Where freedom was just beyond my window. And truth...

You said you'd be back when its over. You said you'll return when you've earned all you can.... But what's enough? What can satisfy ur hunger and desire. Now that you're gone, I've forgotten who you were. All I know of you is just the receipt i receive once a mth telling me you're still alive somewhere in the world out there. I was happy...I'm still happy. I'm longing to be...

ok...not tat happy a post. But honestly I was pondering when am I happy. WHen my family is tgt. When my mom and dad are smiling and my bros are just being boys lar. Arguing laughing fighting and just being best buds. Of course I hv a special place for my Staje ppl. Despite all the history btw me and some ppl but truly its like a disease tat has no cure coz I'm hooked. And of course the ppl dear to me in church. I realise sometimes expressing our affections for each other seems pretty reserved and sayin tat u care for em brings out more controversy than comfort. Maybe its the way we say it or the way we do it. But regardless I feel the same way as i do with my staje ppl when i'm with em. Though abit reserved but still myself. Anyway friends do make a difference in my life as much as my fam does...

anyway am abit tired...and yea i guess this is who i am. funny was thinkin of the msg today. we gotta be careful with wat we say sometimes coz ppl do listen and watch how we live...consistency. I guess tats wat we all are lookin for. Strivin for I hope. COz honestly we hv many different ways of approachin life in different circumstances. But in all those situations how true are you? Just a thought i suppose. Being true, being open not hidin anythin. But then again a fool says everythin in his head a wise man noes when to say and when to kp quiet and noes the right words to soothe a heavy heart...


A scene at setosa the other day...