blessed....

the word is blessed...

happy is somethin we do for ourselves. Blessed is wat others do to you so you feel "happy" but in a more wholesome way. Ok maybe my definitions are all wrong. But anyway who would expect tat in the noisiest of places you'd have the most quiet moments with Him? I never expected it but ultimately I cant deny that He ministered to a need in my life. A constant reminder and reassurance that He is all I need.

honestly this past few days i was like i always am always runnin in circles. but a fren told me somethin tat i hv to work on and somethin quite strikin in my life. And its soemthin i gotta make known to Him. but anyway wat i am abt to say many wont agree but honestly can we doubt that God can meet u wherever u are in wat ways He wants to? I'm not sayin this is the only way. We can list lotsa ways but God is limitless. How can we contain Him? But honestly I guess this experience is personal. Unique to myself and its between me and Him. I know some of you may think I'm crazy or am compromising or wat. But honestly in the heart of worship when all the music fades away as I stood and reflected on the words of the songs flashed on the extravagant screens, i felt or I was convicted and reminded that Jesus ur all I need. I'm not sayin this for the sake of being religious or to defend myself or my position. Its just sharing another encounter. Just like my previous posts where a certain circumstance God can provide u with a way. Who can understand How He moves?

But I suppose only If u have a relationship with Him and seek Him and want to know Him and reli allow Him to take FULL control of your life, you'll experience alot of things tat u urself could not believe. Honestly lookin back on my life5-6 yrs ago, i wouldnt be speakin this language or in this manner. God was just another subject in a textbook called the bible. It had no meanin to my heart. I had the knowledge but it wasn't my life. My life was mine and i wanted to live it on my rules, my grounds, my way, my everythin till 3 yrs back when He spoke to me in His special way. The day He gave me my life verse everythin was different and slowly as he moulded me to be who i am today, i'd say God is not a subject nor is he just somethin we talk abt for the sake of it. He is who He says He is in the bible and the more I read it the more I realise things I nv thought could be true nor could I hv imagined nor could I hv understood. And I cant kp livin the life i used to live because i'm different now...

religion and being religious is tat ur tied down to a practice, tied down to traditions and superstitions. I'm not because I'm tied down to Him and what He says in His word. Wats more impt? if i were religious and impose everythin on u i'm no different than the pharisee...Yet as i let u see my life and who i am, i let u see tat its this constant wantin to be experiencin His presence in my life tat I want and its not me tat i want u to focus but a God who is there. And i guess u gotta think, but i suppose we'll all argue our own ways out...but this i'll say, i went there today expectin nth but to just see wat its all abt, but leavin tat place i felt blessed because one of the songs moved me and recharged me. I didnt ask to be blessed. But I was, He wants to and if its through tat do i deny tat its Him? Do you know when God speaks to you? ANd when God is seeking out for you? And i wonder how many of those youths who left tat hall, would think abt the encounter they had not because of the emotions tat the songs gave but because they know He was there and Him being abba Father. The environment may not be glorifyin to some but do u deny this omnipresent God the power to be there wherever whenever he chooses? I dun force this, because I know countless explanations will never make ppl understand till God meets you where you least expect it. it could be in any situation, circumstance. An accident, a concert, a triumph, a failure, in weakness, in health. Nothin is impossible. Its just between you and Him. Not you and ur nxt door neighbor. Not because of wat I say or becoz wat others say. Its u and Him.

His sheep know His voice.

This was the song:

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You’re my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You’re my Portion
I believe You’re more than enough for me
Jesus You’re all I need

My Healer, You’re my Healer

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands


Anyway u'd be wonderin wat need was it, wells i'll just share, i realised i'm facin a bout of ringworm on my body. Dunnoe why? probably i can list a few reasons but tat aside. I guess the physical aspect just shows how complacent i was in terms of my own hygiene. I thought i'd never get it because my other bunk mates did and i thought i had a good standard of hygiene. But lo and behold I couldnt escape and I have it all ard my body. I thought it was only on one spot but now its almost everywhr. And I thought it wasn't so bad. BUt the pass few days i discovered more and its spreading. So as I stood listenin to this song, I thought of my ailment and my foolishness. Tat yes I do need healin the day i first saw the ringworm and not be complacent. i need medicine. But as I thought even more i realised tat spiritually my heart could be as sickly as my body and i could be just as complacent. And yes it is. IT is. As much as I want healing for my body, I was so assured that my heart needed the healin more. That physically it doesnt matter but in my heart tats whr i needed HIm the most and He was enough. And i admit I m sick. I am in my inner most parts. We need daily checkups and remedies only He can give...we need to examine our lives and give it to Him to work His way in our lives...If i were to say i m fine u'd be just like me who got the ringworm and it'll keep spreadin unless u admit ur sickness and get the meds...If God wills He will heal this ring worm if he wants to and i noe he can. But i noe there is a greater lesson in store for me in this experience. I m reli down abt this and reli nth to be proud of and never had the courage to say it till now, after hearin tat song i couldnt contain it coz wats there to hide?... Wats more impt? Things tat last or the things tat will decay in time to come? I hv to trust him actively not the passive. That He'll help me go through this one of many storms. And I'm blessed because I m assured that He heals even the most ailing hearts. Maybe u think u may never be able to experience it the way i do, but just ask Him, he is seekin u more than u can imagine. Maybe in His own special way he will come to you. Or He will lead you to Him. My prayer is tat we lay aside wat we know and focus on wat God wants us to know. And after conversations with my fren who went tgt with me, i realised we all hv our pride and our ways of seeing things but i guess we learnt somethin frm each other no doubt. And it was just nice to explain and talk things out and hear each other... I know God will bless ya in His own way and i hv no doubt tat He is workin in you. Will keep u in prayer...