dealing...

honestly we all hv our skeletons in our closests... we hv many secrets tat we just wanna let ppl guessing or problems we just sweep under the carpet. i just found out i'm facin one of the skeletons tat's kinda hauntin me. hahas. wells its physical and m dealin with it. Probably gonna go to the doc and ask for some stronger meds. it kinda reminds me wat dan said. we all hv to admit there is somethin wrong in us. talk to someone who can be accountable to u so as to make sure u kp to whr ur goin. i realised dat i'm still dealing with the same things. over and over. and now i reli gotta watch my hygiene in the literal sense coz reli i dunnoe why it seems its growin all ard me... sheesh.. But oh wells God makes things happen and i guess i noe why he is doin this.

u noe i m not tat stellar image ppl think i am. tat goody 2 shoe kinda guy. if i showed u wat was under my carpet. U'd say we're not much different just tat we're ppl tryin to break free frm the sins tat hold us back. BUt the more we try by our own might it makes us sink even deeper. hai...remorse isnt the word. Judas was remorseful yet he killed himself. Saul was remorseful but still went back to his old ways....David sinned and repented but he faced the consequences...

hai...sometimes i feel so unworthy to just carry speakin and learnin and teachin abt u. It makes me so hypocritical. but then again i realise this voice is not urs. its just my old self discouragin the new being tat i cant. the voice of truth says this is for my glory.... so i am his so he be glorified...

ok shant leave myself to self pity hahas. got 2 days left... 2 days to mug and 2 days to pack... and 2 days to prepare tat mind of mine for the things to come in days ahead...

hai...wells face it right?