my 5 loaves and 2 fish...

i was like surfing and came across this song. hahas. Remember the story of the boy who just had 5 loaves and 2 fish and he just gave it to Jesus and He blessed it and through tat 5 loaves and 2 fishes it fed a multitude of thousands....

I never thought of it as the song speaks... How a boy who just had this lil surrendered it and let the LOrd use it and it blessed many. ANd I was thinkin of my own loaves and fishes tat are in my life. How have I used it and given it to the Lord? And how has it blessed others? But yea I was abt to blog abt my thoughts of the day.

I went back to my sch(AJ) and watched my juniors do their syf piece and it was a nice piece of story telling. HOwever they arent as good as they can be yet due to some things. Not gonna dwell on tat coz it aint impt. Wats reli impt is the whole situation tat the alumni is facin. How all the politics and stuff. Wont say it here coz i dun reli noe wats goin on but frm the dinner i had just now the situation is v.grave and I feel for the ppl who are still holdin on to a dream. And I committed myself to tat same dream and told em i'll be there for em. ANd yes this is my loaves and 2 fish i just wanna give to God and see how the Lord works in this area of my life to be. If He wills he will open a door no man can shut. And reli wat happened on the table is reli interestin and i reli wanna do it.

Anyway wanted to tell a fren of mine when I talked with her on sunday how she reminded me abt the T word. Trust. I guess I've been worryin too much becoz of yea myself. If i were to tell all of ya i'm a person with a confidence issue, u'd probably flip knowing tat I've been on stage and hv done wat I've been doin i wont hv this prob rite? wells i'm still human, I hv fears and inhibitions and inadequacies. And when she said wat she said I was taken aback i suppose. Not reli fully but in a way it just hit me tat ppl are seein how i've talked and walked and why do i feel the way i do now... Its a weakness no doubt and I admit it to ya and its amazing how God comes into perspective... Trust and just like the boy with 5 loaves and 2 fishes i hv to give it to the Lord and He will bless it... Thanks alot to tat fren of mine for pointing me back to our Father.

anyway Tonight i've decided and I know its been too long and I've been running away frm this situation and I guess i'm like gonna give my face to him and allow him to slap it....but yea shall just leave it to God to deal with me abt this...part of my loaves and fishes...

anyway its amazing while typin this entry i just spent some time with my parents. wat a moment we spent in prayer and talkin abt things...if i din come tonight i wonder if i'll have a chance such as this...thank you Father...


and if u haven been noticing, i've fallen for this singer. hahas. wells i just like her songs dats all ok. dun get me wrong! hehe...