nuances...

funny,the moment we walked out the door holding our bags of precious items, things we had brought to share with everyone, something struck me. Tat from this day forth, we may not be walkin in dat same room the same way we used to.

gone would be the times whr we would bring our "all" and leave it in piles and heaps. Whr we'd show and tell and laugh and weep. but the moment we walk out that door, our home before is now no more.

though we may still be welcomed the feeling will never be the same. By then we may hv drifted to another plain, another coast, another life? And all this now will be nothing more than a yesterday once more. Probably irrelevant to whr we would be, one day.

I dunnoe abt you guys, but i din dare take tat step out the room with all those things in hand. I did not even dare walk towards the door or glimpse through the window and wonder what would life be as a pilgrim once more?

i may hv overstayed my due, but i could never have enjoyed it more if i didnt. Many would envy me for havin another chance to experience wat i've been through. And i guess that's the reason for the heavy heart leaving that room.

our voices will just be heard in the resounding silence, our laughter in the din of the aircon and fan. but like ppl before and the ppl after, that is the infinite end anyway. we come we go. we hv to move on.

things will never be the same. because thats just the way it is. the new fills the old and with the old the new go's on stronger than before. i wont deny i'll miss u guys, but most of all i'll miss the feeling of just being there.

i hope i can return. to be a part of the ppl in that room. To do wat i love to do. who noes when will dat be. as for u who still remain, make full use of the time there and let ur friendships flourish and let it not destroy u guys. believe in urself. dats all. and dats enough. becoz if u dun believe, then ppl wont believe wat u do.

StAje... may our dreams live on and let not the spirit die.

"nothing more than gravity...a force of nature holding me down. The world keeps on turning. I find myself where i am. but it doesnt hv to be here tomorow."

song by embrace: Gravity