deterioration...

i would say my health is not the paradigms for me this term. i've been plagued especially during this crucial time with a breakdown in health. woke up to a 38.2 fever. and i tried to get out of the hse for a prodcuctive time at sch. but with me feelin this horrible and with just no frame of mind to go to the books, i noe i cant.

spent the whole mornin in bed, afternoon in bed too. now i'm just wondering dat with the time i hv i need serious catching up to do. my mum is definitely concerned. i m definitely panicking as well. but how can i when my body isn't at its optimum?

who wouldnt be afraid?...

was watchin a program on discovery, abt being more than human. how is it dat some ppl are gifted with innate abilties to withstand and do the most remarkable things dat a normal human cant. i guess the keyword is because we think we cant. science has set its limits on the human will. with odds and statistics against it, somehow science can never explain its robustness. how it can make one pull through subzero conditions, and survive being battered by 300pounds per cubic inch of swells trapped in a cavernous blowhole. this is the human spirit. it makes us defy the odds.

i guess the whole deterioration starts when we stop believin in what drives us to go beyond who we reli are and accept the unacceptable. sometimes we hv to admit the inevitable. coz tat's life.u can try so hard. go so far. make those millions but somehow it all ends up the same.

humans r just interesting beings who live on their pride. and its in removing this pride tat humans would be better. or so it seems. the problems the world faces today is probably becoz we cannot put our self-interests away. just look in the news, the headlines. for the past 5yrs or if u can put it even 20 odd yrs or so. so much blood, so much hatred and still up to now so much starving faces. it seems there is no solution becoz how many resolutions hv been made and still change hasn't happened. even if the rich donate a percentage of their incomes, the rich of the poor will take it for their own self.

this is humanity. and its written everywhere. we hate to admit it but sometimes we r indeed helpless heading down this path of deterioration.

maybe i m not the best commentator on this. coz reli, i m only human after all. i can be here now and gone tomorrow. and still the world will be the same.