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kinda wondering what to blog right now. Just returned frm the sunny island, and yea thank God for another eventful week. Hais. As much as I have many complaints I guess I have many more blessings.

Was just thinking how today ended, how it just occured to me to tell them off for being so prideful and haughty, how disappointed I was that despite the weeks of being tgt they still arent together. I thought tough times would unify individuals to become one. But I realised its much more difficult than it seems. Its difficult when personalities clash when ppl u trust betray u and u get arrows which are undeflectable and sometimes making professional mistakes. tired is one thing living with the weight of it is another...sometiems i wonder why bother? makin em do push ups sit ups crunches wont reli drive home much...but sometimes egos gotta be hurt.

if we din let our hearts be pricked our egos be broken how could we even bow down our lives to Him? i guess an example of this was during a verbal fight tat broke out. one of my boys who is outspoken and another whom i noticed a silent observer. and today they just broke out in a verbal argument tat could hv led to somethin tat i'd probably be v.sad abt coz one of em is reli my fav boy. BUt yea it got pretty heated and they acted like i wasnt present so i just observed and interestingly everyone thought it was a small thing and they wanted to avoid the whole conflict and surprisingly the both of em din let down. It seemed like any moment they'd throw a fist at one another.

One kept just takin the verbal blows and the other just kept throwing words at him and said things like "ur attitude sucks" "dun think ur so big" bla bla bla....it seemed like it could be resolved but it kept draggin and they were both goin in circles and i guess i couldnt take it anymore and told them both to shut it and told the onlookers to go away and i had a word with em. and i guess it seemed my words weren't sinking in till i guess i told the attacker tat on who's standard was he basing the other's attitude on? BOth of em are in the same situation. BOth of em have gone through lotsa "shit" and they both know one another to some extent and i noe the attacker knows him and it wasnt nice to say wat he said. SO i said under wat authority do u hv to tell him off when u urself arent in the right? ANd i did say in the end neither are right nor wrong. Its just a misunderstanding and i told the person who absorbed the attack tat I wont allow this to just go especially when he said he doesnt care abt the other guy as the latter doesnt accept him so his friendship ends there because it'll affect the unity of the rest of the boys. Both are influential and i cant afford two feuding parties. because this cant be the way especially when there is still 4wks to go and events tat require their cooperation...

I told them both tat this cant happen and shdnt happen. ANd i told the attacker since he knows the other guy, there's another way in tellin him if the latter goes overboard with his anger or sayings. But I pray now that this will make the rest see the bigger picture becoz at the end of the whole saga tat they all need one another if they are to finish this race together. Even the told to be In-charge cant get em to co-operate that they ended up not follwing his orders, that i challenged them and even said if u think ur reli good come take my place. They wrote down in their goal and stuck it on their walls for all to see that they will go through all this together. And i just threw it back at em adn said u all write all this just for show and its just BULL....

and yea as i sat here and thought of this incident i realise tat if we're in the Lords army we need each other right? even if there is one dispute we hv to settle them and not let it go and say its a small thing because it can affect morale and even the faith of each other...wells its just interestin.

anyway just been challenged....and its a thought tat just appeared, feeding. I need to keep feedin myself and i realised tat in times of dryness the signs of drought appear...oh wells am prayin a specific prayer now. its reli tryin to keep feeding and i guess especially when i flare up sometime i let slip some profanities....but yea its not ok....but yea... ok will end here...

anyway what is prayeR?

"Prayer is an offering up of our desires unto God for things agreeable to HIS will, in the name of Christ, with confession of our sins and thankful aknowledgement of His mercies."

Prayer is the soul's sincere desire,
Uttered or unexpressed
The motion of a hidden fire
That trembles in the breast.