the song of 2003...

"it was only perfect it was only happening but it didnt. its just full blown disorientation."

running in circles...

its funny i was just browsing through my old playlists in my media player when i stumbled upon this song. The song of 2003. OUr song esp for FJSS drama then. I dunnoe if anyone still rem. butits weird how a memory just struck me. Why i wonder? Probably becoz its just the song of wishful thinking. Regretful thinking. the if only's and stuff. The missed things in life, the missing feeling. The should hv beens and stuff for the past few years and concurrently mths. The feelin of never wanting things to end. The feeling of tat belief in dreams.

i guess when we r older we lose a part of ourselves through experiences and circumstances. WE are either forced to rethink concepts we thought we believed in b4. like a child burned by a flame. The child will never dare touch it again. Its as if we cover it up with fillings(the things u use to cover holes in ur walls). Fillings to protect an area we dun wan others to see or even mention abt. Or we just dun wanna feel it ourselves.

i guess the yr 2003 was my golden age. It probably was a dream i wished i had lived over again. But i guess tat feeling was only then. Now is a diff story. Diff ppl. DIff life. And 3yrs on i realised yea the wall i was b4 is diff now. Many more holes filled, many more holes made. BUt i guess its just the yrs rite?

the things we hold onto now, we will one day let go of it in strive for new things to hold on to. Tats life. and i guess the older u get, the more things u'll hv to let go. and the things u do let go of are usually things dat u hold close sometimes. but dats life. Things change, ppl too. IN 2 yrs or more i'd probably be someone diff probably in a diff place, with a diff outlook. and dats why i guess ppl fail u. They'll change without u knowin till u see them face to face or u dun. They'll just be another person in the crowd, in many of our cases another name on a contact list tat we would never click on AGAIN....or even msg hi...

"since then i've never had a glimpse of u. since the day u left i've never reli seen u. these ppl who hv walked in and out...wat do they mean after they've gone on?"

the song of 2003...

just a reminder tat yea we do hv feelings like this...and its whether u wanna accept it or not or just take the filler and cover it up, and sand it like it was never there...coz at the end of the day, wats there to show? a perfect wall?



Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start...

like there reli is another one this time ard....