maganda sana...wala'kasabut

i'm not here to justify a case...neither m i here to criticise but wat i am abt to do is just to say dat i get it finally...

why ppl can be so disgruntled by ppl who are doing the "right" thing...its all perspectives and i guess its all abt meeting expectations and needs...

firstly...u noe u dun hv a good bridge btw them so why torch it...secondly by saying wat u say ppl dun reli buy wat u hv to say coz reli its not dat its not impt...u just dun connect with em...thirdly we are humans after all...so are u...and i guess becoz its just ur job to fulfill wat the motto says...to mould the future...and in doing so u face resistance...rather than use ur hands to gently shape em u hv to force em into a mould. obviously it'll be difficult to sink in and messy...

i noe i m no expert...but i've been observing wat its all abt...like why ppl can get inspired by some while others get ticked off? probably i m just payin lip service to you and all but reli its all abt connections... if u dun connect u get frustrated and take it out on us... u try but probably thats the only tested way u tried...and i noe things are getting desperate but wat can i say? probably there is a set mind set...dat the good trample over the weak and the weak hold back the good...but we co-exist...by sayin wat u said u just made a rift...probably one dat u might regret...coz probably u dun see it...in ur sterness u hv sown strife and discord...and u think dat by rebukin the way u did without the basis of a connection,u've made urself heard? yes u did and u just shut urself out of some ppl u could hv helped...

its fascinatin tat i apparently am disappointed at the quickness of ur judgement...and it irks me tat ppl find it irritatin not different...but i noe its ur job and i dun deny my mistakes...and i accept dat probably i m hopeless as u say and probably i dun hv the time to redeem myself...

but reli

sit down think abt wat u said...u think dat would make me wanna strive harder?

i noe ur concern is reli genuine...but hv u gotten ur hands dirty b4 in order to pull ppl out of the ditch? or u just wanna stand by the side of it and look down and just tell em to jump out when u noe they cant...

if everyone was the same...then einstein wont be a genius...coz everyone is just as equivalent as he is...if everyone work the same way then there is no need for personalities...if we were all robots...might as well just programme us frm the start and get rid of the defects in us...probably dats wat the system wants...and probably dats ur duty...

i noe ur principles are high...i was brought up to live by em...and i noe u dun wanna compromise...but principles based on wat? principles to make u enemy no. 1? principles u noe others dun live by...and in doing so ppl dun wanna listen...its two way... u noe dat...

it pains me to say but i respect u...but its dwindling...and i noe u mean well...but reli...its not just us...u noe it...accept it...coz i noe i m at fault...

and if ever u come by...and wonder why i never brought this up...wat for? coz reli...there was reli no connection...and i guess it wont make much of a diff..coz probably by then we might hv met our doom alr....and even if i get into a big mess...it's all gonna be one ear in one ear out...coz after all...this is the generation ur dealing with...and as far as i noe...u've nvr hit tat spot tat means alot to em...

u missed...

its like a demon frm the past visited me again...its dat feelin once more...its so familiar...it doesnt wanna leave...cloudin my vision all i see is me...i try to wrestle it away...yet it feeds on me...drawing my strength as i struggle...i fall...succumbing to its power...and deteriorate into the dust...

i realised...i m gettin used to ppl walkin ahead of me...