sobering...

was blog hoppin just now and realised how strings connect and how fragile this lil strings are in our lives...

realised dat it doesnt reli matter much if ppl rem or forget ur birthday...it just gives u another reason to forget theirs...hahas kiddin...not saying anythin though but today was a far frm normal birthday celebration...guess everyone was busy in their lives or wat but reli i nvr had the expectation frm anyone lar even my family dun reli expect much and i guess its the lil things tat i reli lookout for so pls dun be irked if i dun reply to ur sms's or somethin probably i was too preoccupied with somethin dat i just forgot to reply...but wat i reli appreciated the most was the ROCK ONS...besides conceding to the fact that i am now not a teen but a ty and enduring the teasing of my v.ancient age lol...i reli enjoyed being with em...n i guess the greatest gesture was dat durin my entire day today the laughter and all, the brotherhood stands strong lar...of course i wont forget abt shi min and the inverse gift of a mango smoothie today...hahas it was unexpected lar...

though i may hv a lil smile on my face but reli in my heart i wish i could just say i love u guys alot even though it seems we all are walkin different paths...just by sayin happy birthday is enough for me...speakin abt bein easily contented i myself dunnoe how to express the gratitude inside...n yea jane gotta say m sorry dat i kept u waitin there...

anyway most of all i guess was the 2 msg's frm 2 v.dear ppl to me...and they said exactly the same thing but i guess most of all was wat my dad sent to me...

"Men may fail you but He is true to His word...PAPA"

this was the exact same msg he told me when i flunked my j1 in 2004...and the moment i read his msg today...it reminded me, it pricked me...dat indeed my dad has been looking out for me...and reli if i had all the superlatives in the world it would be dat even though i thought ur not there...in the shadows ur always there to remind me of the light...

honestly if this entire day was just abt raraing and all...i guess the whole meaning of Life would be lost in it...20 yrs...and the more i look back n the more i trudge forward...every yr is unique...just as this yr is...

and on this day as i look at those who remembered...it makes me wonder abt those who forgot...esp those i thought would remember...i noe i myself can forget and i'd like to take this time to say i'm sorry dat i did forget at all...and reli its just sobering to noe dat men will fail men...and it makes it more meaningful to treasure those dat remembered...

reli as the saying goes less is often more...i guess my birthday wish is just simple.... __ ____ __ ________ __ ______... dats all

i'd just like to say this dat somehow the events so far just line up...

if only it were as simple as takin a photograph of my thoughts and flashin it all here...showing the box tats sobering as this...labeled 170706...and its just half filled...