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honestly i m at a loss now... hahas... reli... while everyone is workin hard out there... i m figurin out why i m not?... makes sense? oh wells call it ill discipline or wat but for now let me be... prolly after all this lingering somethin will just come out... i noe i m not smart... neither stupid... but oh wells... life's more than this i guess and yea i guess my home needs to start being one...

anyway i suppose one way or another i just cant let myself down although i m tryin to tell myself i hv to persevere... i guess its abt time i start lookin out for myself abit more than i hv coz all this while i've gave in to others far too easily and yea it may be good but i guess its abt time... call it a revival...

honestly, reality is setting in... i may be fine... but its just a thin line... a meer thin line... oh wells... strength nothin like it... i m fearing now...

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