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i guess i've never reli spoken abt dreams...

i dreamt last nite tat my old sec sch hockey team united one day and went into one big tourney... there was sahmad, of course my lil bro, adam, alloy, hafiz and many others. in my dream the feelin of playin the game was back the vision of the goal in front, the crisp passing... sweat drenched feelin after mins of chasing the ball and of course the euphoria of scoring a goal...but nothing beats the undescribable feeling of team... wat it is i myself cant say... its just dat feeling...

there was also this x-rated dream where i thought i was in one of those movies... well wont describe it thoroughly or else some horny guy/gal/pervert will start wishin i had more...hahas just dream on dude/ette...and its not tat kind of thing... i noe wat u may be thinkin midnite surfin hor? anyway its just a dream...

and once there was this dream i lost ppl...who they were well i can recall once it was my bros... i guess in particular there was this dream whr 2 of my bros died in a cruise ship as they fell overboard...hmmmm ohwells...

wells wats the whole pt aye? dreams are probably reflections of ur inner self conscience? there are probably many things we may never think of but do in our dreams...

why is it I hv to go on this way
down a monotonous path
littered with negativity all day
it bores me to death when i think of this
nothing more than a raindrop can convince

why is becoz i'm waiting
for a sign that will never come
call me a fool coz i finally see
my desire...

i'm an inward looking fool
searching for an inner sign
digging forever
to a bottomless pit

i'll never grasp it
for i never reached out
i'll never see it
coz i never looked out

i'm an inward looking fool
waiting for my own demise
days on days in
it has been staring at me

how could u hv missed it
coz u never thought it would come
i'm an inward lookin fool
who thought was wise but never did...

i noe i cant do this on my own
wrench me out coz i'm not alone
foolish ways i dont desire
to lose myself within this mire

faith alone not words like this
is wat can free me from within
nothing more nothing less
Lord i bow down to this test

free me now less i die
devoured by the devils inside
i noe a fool like me
deserves no grace

and can it be that i shd gain
an interest in Your love?
that not me who shd die
but you for me?

i can never fathom
i cant find out
lest i become tat fool
i was once

things are different
something happened
and i wont be tat fool anymore
but a fool i will be just for You...

for the world will never know
unless i live for you

ps. the song was and is not for long... was once...isn't a reflection...