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i realised that a simple blog can contain so much info abt the whereabts of my 2 dear bros...

call it hot news or wat i nvr read such explicit details and juicy news in my life...i never dare to even talk abt such thing out in this world wide web coz reli i hv a negative perception of this place and of course of my negative thoughts tat im slowly gettin myself out of...anyways ladies and gentlemen due to my fast paced life i reli missed alot of developings at home...somehow wat i read explains the late nites and probably something tat was lost at home...i do wonder whr u got it? all for dat gal? and not only tat were u lying tat u were sleeping at ur frens place? or ur "frens" place? oh man as a person who is cunnin as u, u hv to cover ur tracks but wat shd i say? shd i blow it all out?

well the news is this...my elder bro according to red is seein someone...gosh...tats why this sudden urge to write it here...dun believe it read reds blog somemore his gf and my elder bros one click!...its so explicit and it just sums up wat he has been doin...geee...hai...i miss em yet they kp on doin this and its reli hurtin my parents...how would they react when they read metaphoricnonsense...oh wells the time is comin when things will just blow up back home...

it makes me wonder...when ur heading down one road speedin so fast knowin it may be the wrong way...u'll just say its ok dun bug me this is my way to go...well i'm takin a while to make that u-turn...and yea probably i hv some unfinished business with myself...and i guess according to someone its ppl's choices...cant condemn them...just gotta love em more...coz they cant change for u...only u can change urself...i miss my bros...but i reli dunnoe wat to do when they live a life so wild...and why is it dat joel and i just stay home...well we all hv our consequences to face aye...and prolly its just part of a bigger plan tat moulds us into who we are to be 10yrs down...

anyway i've been receivin emails abt relations recently...and yea somehow it kinda irks me why such words are easily said but reli hv no meanin...i mean things like friends forever...best frens...i care for you yada yada yada...it touches...but i guess its all in the doin dat counts...anyway dats all for now...i wouldnt say i m in shambles and yea ur right and i'm not angry or wat...and i noe this is another excuse but i was just in one of my inward lookin moods...and i guess i hv to say it, things are gonna be diff for sure and yea i guess i'm crawling back into my shell of self consciousness...wells i noe no one can do anythin abt it...even me...

but i guess i'll leave it all to You...

who is You...

anyway food for thought...who are those tat mean more than us back home? think abt it if ever u drop by red...i appreciate everythin u've done but i pray u just come clean with wat ur doin...happiness with her maybe temporal pleasure and all but when the next storm comes will tat pleasure pull u through it all? i may not be an expert but reli ur runnin too fast...and if ur lifeclock stops at 70 do u think pleasure will take u all the way there for the next 50+yrs? how long can u hold when u disregard ur father and ur mom? u love her mom more than ours? u can depend on ur own income now? prob u robbed us huh? this are just thoughts red and they are racin real fast...u can sense it in my eyes when u see me i noe u do...ur not heartless afterall...u may boast the looks of the hottest guy ever...but reli r u dat hot within? this may sound as if i envy u bro but no its just qns i've not entertained till i dropped by ur metaphoricnonsense...i hope u drop by here....

and i pray i dun explod again like i did to jono and cause another rift coz now reli i m concerned whr ur path will take u and its not only me...and i wonder when the worse happens...will u be alright? will u lose urself again? n i noe u've been through pain b4 but this time it's gonna be only worse...and i pray when tat time happens u turn to the right person...whoever is rite i guess only God noes...and u noe i cant fade frm ur life bro...ohana...it means family, and family means no one gets left behind...and i pray u wont...