RAWK ON!

wells heres how my horrible april went! (in the background i here voices of GO! GO! GO! and yes these are high pitched voices! *shudders)

besides nites out. wks of missing. wks of floping. wks of realising dat we cannot make it. one thing still stands. WE RAWK! not saying we deserved to win.

the principle of sucking it in and rawking on is such a simple statement tat i wish most of us would follow. it is good to win, sucky to lose. But wat if frm the start u reli had nothing to lose? so wat if it screws up? so wat if we dun look good? would opinions of others make us fold over? if ur intention was to rawk it and you did; there you hv it. YOU hv just RAWKED ON!!!

let me just say the philosophy of rawk on had its humble beginnings in some mini community of a major minority(an oxymoron, but if u see it frm a pt of view u'll probably get wat i mean)... the idea of rawk on is explicitly rawking! to put it simply its seeing life interestingly and knowing proudly dat u've done it. if u win or not... at the end of the day as long as u put ur best foot forward... u hv rawked on!

i mean this is not a means of comforting ourselves. we noe whr we stand. we noe how it went. the ppl in the audience will never noe the simplicity, the practice, the bitching, the bimboism and much much more(not sayin i m emphasising those pts) and no one opinion can remove dat feelin of the intensity dat ur being watched! the applause! the cheers! the roars! the energy! its a story to tell ur children and probably they might even carry on wat daddy/mummy or soon to come grandpa/grandma has done. wat stories to tell indeed! i mean picturing myself in a silly outfit and not forgetting the cock up some of us had over our outfits and ended up improvising on other methods. (wells not sayin i dun appreciate it but YOU put in a lot of effort and it was good YOU RAWK!) but it was fun. definitely.

well it doesnt matter if we lost! i guess the moment we realised it was fun! its was the best run! i'll just kp on rawking on! in other words move on in life! my view is this. we can never always win becoz there is always someone out there who is better, faster, smarter, stronger but dat doesnt mean we cant be stronger, better, faster, smarter in our own way... it all boils down to how u take it. and u dun hv to agree with my view. however if u chose to be sore. go ahead i wont stop u. no one will. coz for me i noe, the spirit lives on coz we hv rawked on!

i asked myself as i walked out alone, wats more impt frm all this?... a piece of plastic? a trophy? all the tangible things u can get and be proud of? or is it the friendship? the satisfaction tat i did it? the trust and the bonds we formed? and all tat intangible immeasurable stuff? its hard to decide... because its a choice many i guess seldom make. and i guess its only human to not see beyond who we are like the dog who saw his reflection. but reli it all boils down to this qn... even if you won or lost... even when u noe its a forgone conclussion...

HAVE YOU RAWKED ON?

well tats done... now comes may... and this is where my heart, sweat and tears will be... for this intense few wks... i noe i m tired... but i guess the spirit of rawkin on kps me goin! and i guess in almost all aspects as long as u kp on rawking, u'll realise life still goes on rawking!

p.s. if u think wat i did was stupid? think b4 u speak. would you do wat i did if u were in my kind of situation? i wont say i was the best or was good out there? like i said i noe wat i did. my conscience is clear and to tell u truthfully i dun reli need to explain it to you coz i rawked it! u can disagree. but honestly watch the words. watch the opinions. coz u dunnoe whr u'll end up with em.

p.p.s. i m not sayin the process of rawkin on is some fanaticism or some occult and it doesnt mean to be totally ignorant and just be happy and fake. its just an idea, a way of expression. a way of seeing things. and yes probably there are many ways to rawk. but my way of rawkin is mine. if u disagree go ahead! i respect u for havin ur own way. and yea this is not the only way of rawkin k?

i missed you and let me tell u. i cant wait for the wkend again.