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am gettin more random... m like a saturated solution tat cant take no more of this... i just flunked math again. oh yea probably the response i'll get is oh its expected. cant expect to much frm a has been. or a fluke like me. an inconsistent, lazy person. well did i say this coz i m proud of flunkin every single one of em? do i sound like i m proud puttin it up here in the open when who noes wat kind of being will be readin this information? do i? do i? do i?

its obviously m not. but why do i say it? coz its a prob i m havin. its real to me. maybe not to you guys coz everyone else is so cooked up with theirs. and dats why i guess we shdnt brush off ppl's insecurities so fast just becoz we cant relate... we cant leave someone helpless when we noe we can offer a hand, an ear or somethin... probably i've come to a pt where my selfishness is directed to those i care for or yea...

anyway m seatin on this chair again...thinkin once more... well not of negativity but yea m slowly rising seeing a light at the end of the tunnel... oh manz save the drama lar... its all said b4... its just a cycle tat kps on goin and goin... oh wells...

well i dunnoe if i said this b4... or i guess wil just say it... if u dunnoe how to help dun just assume u can help... wat ppl need arent advisors... they just need ppl to be there... advice needs to be seeked... the prob with many of us we give too much advice... i noe m guilty too... so yea... be there... noe the need... noe the prob tat is buggin tat person... coz a prob is a prob coz its real to tat person be it how trivial the prob may be... reli... the more we laugh or think the prob is nothin, then this person will totally close up which is much worse... everyone thinks their prob is the worse... and yea i too think the same way too... but i remember someone once told me... to step back and look at it from another pt of view... and yea its not so bad as i thought it was...

well pardon my inconsistency in my life...total fluctuations total misconceptions sometimes... yea cant wait for it... cant wait... n it is coming soon...