thank God for frenz...

i reli appreciate my frenz ard me... and i say dat i noe someone is watching me every day... well there was this one day i was suppose to meet my dad at some location but somehow i got it mixed up so i waited like for 20 min b4 i realised dat i was at the long place. The worse thing was not being at the wrong place, it was not having a phone at all. so at that moment i just waited and waited. Then somehow, i guess perfect timing to say my old pri sch fren popped by and to tell ya its been awhile since i last seen him and thankfully he had a phone. so i kinda like told him my situation and asked if i could borrow his phone. Then the worse thing was that it was a prepaid card so i felt bad calling. but somehow my dad didnt pick up but ended up calling back which was a good thing coz my frenz phone was free incomin... well how else can i say it?

then there was only yesterday when i reli reli started off on a reli bad day...i kinda like woke my bro up in the bad side of the bed... and yea it was bad to the pt i struck him with my bk in which i was using to revise an upcoming test... well striking my bro wasnt the thing... the thing was dat i struck him pretty hard till blood trickled down his nose and dat whole mornin i was haunted by dat face...

it was as if i had broken a certain trust of being a bro. A certain decorum. A manner of behaviour associated with me was shattered tat morning. And when he sat there in the living room looking at me with a mixture of disbelief and anger and disappointmen and hurt. He struck me in return. Worse than any nose bleed could or even a bruise. He didnt have to shout or say anything. That gaze was enough to unsettle my heart. Unsettle me for i wondered what kind of a brother am i?...

well i was glad there was cca tat day. and thankful for cleopatra, one dragon and royal fish for just hearing me out but i reli appreciated dragon. i know with names like dat u'd expect him to fry u with his flame but this one dragon i admire alot. although he scares me sometimes with his chin hits but even so he just heard me out dat day. and was thankful he was there to listen to me say wat i wanted to. and not forgetting cleopatra and royal fish who dropped in once in awhile to hear me out. well i stil havent done wat i am suppose to, my family ties at home seem so messy dat i dun wanna think abt it for now.

then there was today. learnt more abt pengs and lien. they r reli good buddies to be with.

if not for these ppl i wonder how would i be right now? i feel reli blessed for ppl ard me. and those r just some examples lar. not saying i neglected the rest. just some of the highlights of my already down trodden wk.

frenz.. its a God send.

and i guess i am choosing to just kp on smiling even when i m down and out coz like who noes someone out there reli needs dat smile to remind em tat life isnt dat bad after all. and i dun wanna pull ppl down even more...

well all i can say is dat i hv a dream. can i reach it? i think i can? i know i can? but will i do it? wil i take this step to achieve it. i know the hurdle. i know wat must be done. but will i do it? somehow it has to start. i dun wanna live my life regretting dat i never did. but i noe words are just words.

quote of the day.

"why must you reach her std?
the challenge is me."

now u see why? thank God for frenz...