worries? or unnecessary thoughts...

I don't know whats with me, anyway yesterdays prayer meeting, thank God for aunty lilian's prayer. In my heart I really felt strengthened and reminded and Loved by a God so big and holy, that He can use the words of someone else prayer to remind you and comfort you and encourage you that I am the Lord your God.

I've been spending the last few days reading the book of genesis. Especially the story of abraham, Isaac and Jacob. I was just thinking, never in the story has God left these men of faith alone! God always took the initiative to tell His ppl, I am the Lord your God. And it just reminds me of the act of grace God did for us by sending His son. Praise God for His mercies that endure forever.

Been awhile since I've had time to sit here and consolidate things in my head, wells firstly I guess I've realised how immature I reli am in one aspect of my life. And I realised that there is this depravity in me that I pray God will deal with me as He pleases. As I feel its bordering between delight and obsession. And I recall it was one of the things under the category of relationships. I suppose I need the great physician to deal what He deems right.

Also I'm thinking what am I gonna say to the cyf this saturday for their anniversary, it may seem easy to just pick any favourite verse and give it to them, and I was thinking any one could, but I just want to encourage them and challenge them? God be my wisdom in this as I think I know what to say but yet I'm not sure if I should say it.

Another thing is I have to learn how to do things quickly and really have tricks on my sleeve, dealing with younglings is a joy as well as a frustration. If I had it my way I'd be just screaming and shouting but still I know as much as God's word needs to be sown I let God do the changing and let God just use me in whatever role He deems best.

I'm pretty much miss my ex-co in my youth group, wells last Sunday I MISS them as we didn't have that sunday school time we enjoy but I pray the Lord Keep us close and the Lord show himself real to them. And I suppose I shouldnt use excuses but just drop em a msg and say HI. I realise its that same thing that actually Hinders me from God being able to use all of me. I pray ur journey with the Lord this year is really good and its not somethin we should separate as church is one thing my life another, your life is just one and the boundaries are spelt out in the bible....oh wells just abit of frustration but I thank God for grace to abound as I learn to accept, to love and to appreciate others for who they really are.

I really don't noe what to ask the Lord this year, it seems like alot of things, but this one thing kinda came to mind while typing, to be whole in Him. I was wondering after yesterday's prayer, the psalmist when He wrote Ps19, they had only the bk of the law, yet they can rejoice, and How it can convert one's soul from sadness into rejoicing. It was only the bks moses wrote(to us its just mundane if we look at numbers, leviticus and Deuteronomy) but ok I myself have not really read it all but I see alot of God taking the initiative there. Who would spell out a way of life for an entire nation? Who would bother to teach slaves how to be conquerors of lands and nations? I think not even the greatest person in the world could, but a God full of love for His ppl.

Yet some of us forget that it was God who loved us a sinner first that made Him make a way for us to enjoy Him. Even when we feel as if He wasn't there, i can just picture a father letting His child play in the play ground running and using the see-saw slide and swing correctly and when He needs a helping hand would run to His father to ask for Help and He is always watchful and vigilant. I can picture a Father who will discipline His child when He does wrong and is in need of correction. Its just amazing the thought of God. Praise God. But I tell myself not to be presumptuous but I guess just as the psalmist says, I have to be whole in the word. And in v 14 in ps 19 to have everything tat goes in my head and heart be acceptable unto Him.

Sometimes the complicated things in life become simple in light of His word. Thank God for the word that makes wise the simple.....

the simplest thing of casting all our cares...for HE cares for us...

Cast all my Cares Upon You - Kids Praise and Worship