*whirrring sound*

ok ignore the titles coz reli i am running out of title names. Hahas. BUt reli there is this whirring sound frm the com tats ya noisy. ok nvm.

anyway i just wanna say tat in all the difficulties we've been through, and serving, we must remember that it is a privellege. That even when we think we are the only one's labouring, its such a joy to know how the Lord is blessing others in His work.Wells this i learnt last wk during the Sunday School retreat. 

God owe's us nothing. We owe Him more than anythin. But truly one thing tat struck me today was that we are not indispensible. We are mere vessels for His use. We are just another tool in His plan. So wat makes us think we are v.impt? God uses anyone He choses. And this I have learnt many times. And i guess rather than feel so down becoz of the turn of events, we gotta just be steadfast and unmovable becoz we have the Lord behind us. It hasnt failed. The Lord never fails. So why do we feel discouraged? BUt rather we thank God for times like this to see how real He is.

I suppose wat we all lack these days is grace. Is placin trust and hope in ppl. I know for certain tat we all arent on the same level of maturity nor do we hv the same stds as others. ANd its sad to see tat we expect ppl to be on the same lvl as us. And becoz of tat we say we cant associate with em? I know i hv this prob. Esp with my bros. BUt if Jesus did tat oh boy. WE would nv have access to salvation at all. Many a times it shocked ppl to see Jesus hangin out with sinners. Ppl were puzzled why He bothered. ANd we all know the reason yet why doesnt our lives show it? Rather then look at others why not look at the mirror and see if u see christ there? We ought to reflect Him. Sometimes it starts with us.

Rather than becomin ppl who bring peace we are more of like policemen, no different frm the pharisees. Yes full of zeal but for wat purpose? But wat then of the christians in acts? Where is the love we hv for others? The love christ had for the lost? The love we show in correcting others? Rather than bitch, gossip, complain and comment why dun we just teach it, live it. But out of love. Because if its not out of love then wats the pt?

oh wells i guess i've gotta be resolved in all this. BE certain and sure. And i need God's strength and wisdom in all this. even as it seems tat we're at wits end. But we gotta endure. I dun believe its time to leave this ministry. But I know if I want to the Lord will pave the way. BUt this is between me and God. And it may seem tat learning of elijah's story The Lord did pave the way for him.

so wats in it for me? I just gotta be thankful that He is using me and its reli a privellege that a God who is just so amazing tat even w0rds cant describe uses ppl like me. ANd reli to seek HIm while He is near and with all my Heart.

but yea lets jsut finish this year. and not be fearful of the obstacles becoz only through tat will we see God at work.