i admit

honestly how well things turn out is beyond our control. learnt somethin today while listening to the sermon. 7pts of King Saul's folly. And i guess it ties down to joy as well. when we think we are good we couldnt care less abt anythin until someone flashes the mirror to ya. Anyway i reli thank God for today. Though i did some prep at home i guess leavin my notes back there God just wanted me to be true and honest and upfront and not to rely on my own strength but Him. And yea I admit tat and even though I'm a person who needs words to encourage me adn ppl to say u've done a gd job, ultimately now it doesnt matter. I'm just blessed to be able to hold one bk and read frm it one verse at a time.

i guess wat i forgot to mention today to everyone is tat joy sunday isnt just a one off sunday thing its a recharge to be able to make u live for the nxt 5-6 days in the world whr reli our faith/standards/morality are all put to the test...

anyway i admit that in the most difficult situations its tough to stay rooted to wat u believe in but after the past few wks of doubting, discouragements and just being myself, the Lord is good and He's faithful and its interestin how despite being the person we are he will still carry us through.

anyway gonna be facin my nxt reality. i've got 48boys to turn to men. i've gotta pray for this time. Especially when i hv 129days left after which all this cannot be returned to me again. it only happens once and watever happens in the future i'll leave it all to HIM. PROV5:21.

yea shall end here. anyway wat i'm feelin now, i'm just blessed today.

anyway the song was given to me by a fren just thought i wanna put it here coz reli how deep his love for us.