my year in revision...

"Lord, grant me strength with great resolve,I'll strive for what's ahead
To serve Thee with a servant's heart,no matter what it takes
Turn my heart away from the temptations that I'll face
Draw me near to Thee for in Thy presence I will gladly stay"

"ANyway wats my life ahead for the yr 2007? ARmy is one, two is this, my greatest desire is just to burn consistently this 2007, no more foolish dec christian. ALso for my bros, esp joel, he'll be alone in sch now and knowing who he is he may do somethin foolish. But i guess its for my bros to discover that somethin I've found. SOmething only God can show."

How much more can I say, honestly I've learnt one thing in the yr 2007, is tat in everything just commit it to the Lord and let Him show you the way. And as I read back my post on the 3rd of jan, the Lord has been faithful. He has given me something tat some cant even imagine to hv. As much as many say they dun hv time or are tired, I just feel energised just being involved. And am reli grateful for the opportunities that hv come.

So I guess 2007 was a good year. A real eye opener in really experiencing God. Anyway, gonna share something amazing tat happened over the youth camp.

I actually din noe wat to write for the skit night, was totally stumped on wat to portray. I guess I thank God for the inspiration and flow of ideas. But wat was more amazing was the part 3 of the skit. The one whr every one of us involved will say things tat define who we are in God. Apparently I learnt this during a sharing/gathering session. It just burdened upon me to just share this because if we don't know who we are in the eyes of God then how can we then move on? BEsides the pt.

Anyway I wanted the piece of paper with references to all the verses and all. I kinda smsed my fren abt it. APparently my fren din bring the phone. But somehow God knew I needed it and my fren passed it to me on the night itself just b4 the play began without even looking at the phone. I suppose wat was more amazing was that I reli din need the paper at all becoz the words just flowed. As in I only had the paper just to check if the verses I picked tallied and lo and behold it did tally with the lines I wrote and reli thank God.

I guess it goes to show tat in watever we do, we seldom see the bigger side of things. As much as we want God to be a part of our daily lives, its God who reli wants us to be part of His awesome plan. THe irony is dat He is always ard yet it is us who isnt.

My biggest burden for the yr 2008 is to reli pray for a specific ministry for me to reli invest in. As much as I've had glimpses of my future, I reli am prayin to see whr God is gonna work and I be used for His glory. Just now while driving ard my mum told me abt a specific request for me to do something for the ju-eng nurses.(write them a skit so they can perform it sometime in august) I wont deny it could be God's leading but I've gotta pray abt it and if it does go through Lord just use me to the fullest.

And honestly for my education and studies, I reli am prayin whr would He send me? I've got plans and ideas. But with the grades and all a part of me cant help but be sceptical. BUt as much as it is, God will make a way and if ever an opportunity beckons then the Lord will show me whr to go. Its already January and the nxt window is this comin march-apr. I reli need ur leading.

Another burden is the love for the youth and the lil ones. One thing the yr 2007 taught me is the joy in influencing lives and reli just being a fren to those ppl would not dare go to. I pray tat this joy never leaves me and this burden to reach out doesnt leave me. I know I hv my short comings when it comes to this and I understand tat many ppl dun reli practice this. But i reli hope as my heart was comforted to hear a stir within my brother concernin christian relationships on How disappointing ppl can be. When ppl cant agree or cant stand one another and just reli cant accept ppl for who they are or wat they are becoming. ANd if they wanna correct a person it shd be all in the spirit of love and concern for the brother. BUt yea the issue is who am I to butt in right? WElls to put it frankly if I am ur brother in Christ I hv a responsibility for you. AS much as this is a race whr we all hv to finish, the only difference with this race with the race of the world is tat we can help one another complete it and the purpose is not to compete. ANd the most impt thing is tat my relationship to u is not two way but three. God-You-me, therefore if I dun hv concern for you I hv diregarded my accountability for you. Oh wells to sum this up, I pray tat I start frm my own home.

I know the challenges are getting tougher,
And the devil will begin to tamper
Because he will always wants to torment His ppl
For giving up all for Him who died on the cross
So as much as he can destroy and oppress
He will always go back in a whimper
For greater is He that lives in me than he that is in the world.
For as much as I can lose in this life, the more that I can gain
Just like Job who kept His peace and faith in God.
Even when all was taken from him
So will I till that day still stand steadfast and sure?
I pray I will.

PS. WE all want to do things For the Lord. We even speak for Him and pass on judgement based on our finite knowledge. But is tat wat God reli wants us to do? The 2 great commandments never spoke abt us being something for Him. But it was to love Him with all our hearts, mind, soul and to love our neighbour as ourselves. HE is the one who makes us who we are. He uses us as His tools for his great work. He gives us the inspiration, the abilities, the talents. As much as we all wanna grow close to Him, we must always rem tat it is only through Him and with Him tat we can only be wat we can be for Him. It was He who initiated it all. It is never a case of I want to do this for Him because He doesn't need you to and because we can't. All He wants is an obedient servant who will join Him and depends upon Him in His work wherever and whenever He chooses to. So I pray for open hearts and open minds and willing ones that will truly want to understand and experience this God in our daily walk. Be it just one who would walk beside me as a companion in the work. Just be who you are and submit and truly want Him to start an exciting life with Him...