experiment volcano...

dun mind the title...

just thought that tonight someone just had to pour the vinegar in so tat it would cause the volcano to react due to the reaction of the weak acid and the carbonate in the "magma" chamber...

honestly as much as i wanna say everythin is fine and put up a smile- honestly its just a build up of lil lil frustrations tat just irk me. ever since i've entered the green force wk in wk out i discover unpleasant happenings to my things. To be frank i'm just feelin this way becoz things dat somehoe help me past time and kp my thoughts in checked are misused and "spoiled"

i noe they are just material things, but the worse is dat no one wants to claim responsibility. and that is the worse thing. if every wk i hv to deal with this i wonder how much more can i take. geee. i noe prolly i'm over reactin or wat but honestly i just hv to let it go. i guess if ur in my position b4 u'll understand. imagine u leave ur precious item on ur table and go off for a vacation for a wk and come back to find out its been misused and abused. U ask the ppl who were home abt wat happened and all they can do and say is tat it wasnt them and tat they dont noe. wells perhaps once is still bearable, but if its multiple times and it doesnt seem to sink in them that u are feelin v.angry or hurt abt it. N yea i noe its just a small thing. HOw much more if its somethin bigger?

sometimes i reli wonder wat can i do abt it since goin the mtd of remindin and tellin ppl doesnt work do i hv to lock my stuff in a safe? do restrictions? put a close circuit camera? i'm reli runnin out of options. wells money can replace but the fact no one owns up is the thing tat irks me the most... oh wells there has to be a solution to this no pt me wastin all my energy and gettin worked up over wats been done. i guess i just hv to be brutal. in a loving way of course because after all they gotta learn. respect for ppl's things.

on another note, enough of the frust kinda realised while writtin i'm pretty dwellin on it and cant quite carry on frm the last sentence. anyway update.

i guess this past few wks hv been kinda testin. not for myself but for my frens ard me as well. esp my bunkmates. 2 wks of outfield and another one to come, sometimes sittin in the middle of the forest sleepin on a bed of flatten undergrowth, shrubs and grass, i begin to wonder n think why? of all the things i could do now why this? speakin to my bunkmates and platoon mates and company mates, all i can feel are sentiments of reluctance and just goin through their term of service. It makes me wonder why?

but yea i thank God tat somehow i found a spark in me to kp goin. its funny lar, before every activity or after any meal i'll be lethargic and sleepy and even durin safety briefs to stay awake also kinda difficult. as they say fightin the Zzz-monster. BUt yea somehow durin the activity there is energy to just go on. ANd yea m on my final wks and just 2more things to clear....soc and this comin wk's outfield exercises.

wells honestly i reli hv thoughts runnin, yet cant seem to catch em or just say it. cant even pen it becoz of the time factor. oh wells still keepin faith and prayin. i guess i reli wish ppl could see things frm others perspective and not dwell on their own things but to just make do with wat they hv for the day and try to bless others. but yea i gotta learn to understand as well dat not everyone will think as i am. not sayin i'm a gd example of it... but yea i guess as much as i wanna be heard, i still dun mind hearin abt others lives...

oh wells enough of yapping. reli its been splendid livin day by day not knowing wat to expect and day by day talkin to the floor and running like crazy and doin drills and pronin and crawlin. I guess in the end of the day its an experience one can hold.

He brings the vinegar
And pours it down the tube
out comes the fumes
liquid magma spews
it flows down crimson
engulfing the steep contours

he is delighted after the eruption
for the experiment was a success