don't walk ard, stay on the altar..

Been reflectin this past few days, realised that someone aint happy that we're actually regrouping and actually puttin a firm hold on wat we stand upon. It seems tat he and his minions are slowly taking hold of many things. Discouragements, worries, and settling wat needs to be settled and ya gettin all busy and stuff. Then I was reminded, wat am I doin to prepare myself? How m I preparing the field for rain to fall? I may pt my finger the other way BUT i realised it has to start with me. It has to start with me daily for the nxt few days reli preparing myself to accept, to be gracious and to reli depend on Him to make the camp glorifying to HIM. And for me to be empowered to face the challenges ahead. Its not abt me. Just as it says in day 1, its not abt me, its all ABout God. (purpose driven life)

there is so much we can do, prepare, salvage or introduce, but how abt the ppl coming? Hv we reli considered or reli surrendered this whole camp to Him or its just say say only, I confess I hv not been faithful in this. I confess that I procrastinate in this and I struggle to do it becoz i get caught up with things....but is tat so? PROCRASTINATION IS A SIN....it will lead to idleness and then temptation and then sin.......

I've been toying with these thoughts, WE HAVE NOT LOVED THEE AS WE OUGHT. we hv not given everything as we ought. We have not laid ourselves on the altar as we ought. wells maybe we did one day, but we stood up again and walked again(if u get wat i mean, imagine a sacrifice on the altar standing up? Its the daily surrender, daily death to my ambitions, my expectations, my dreams, my goals. Its building that house on the rock and when the storm comes it'll not crumble. I think construction was on a standstill, and Joel Mohan ur right when u said procrastination and excuses. hahas. okok God ur just so good tat u send reminders and ppl and I know I hv to keep on building on you DAILY. Not a one off thing k. I'm writtin this here so I can remind myself time and time again. So tat i dun start walking off the altar again but just die to myself everyday.

How do I feel now? SERENE CHAOS. hahas. peaceful anxiety...knowing God is going to do something despite all the uncertainties and it says in Ps 37, delight urself in the Lord and He will grant the desires of my heart...wells honestly my desires? hahas its basically His isnt it? hehe ok lar. interesting How it says He will may it all come to pass and we shd just wait on Him...(vs5,6,7) Nothing to worry rite?

wells Ps 51:17, sacrifices of God are a broken heart and a contrite spirit. I know tat there is nothing I can do for this camp. I cant change mindsets, can't change ppl's hearts or tell them abt things tat amaze me because God hasn't opened their eyes. God has to do it. So i'm just leaving it in His hands. As much as I want to be in control, see things happen, its not up to me, or up to my ability becoz only God can do tat. so I entrust it to Him. everything. Its not only for this camp but every single day a sacrifice on the altar....tats wat God wants me to do, delight in Him daily.

Not I, but Christ - The Wilds Music