undescribable...

somehow i just cant understand myself. that feelin tat just wont come out and i myself cant describe. its there but its not. i dunnoe prolly becoz i'm so focused on the things to come(and prolly take higher priority) tat it seems tat all forms of "distractions" hv been put aside and so on...its good...yet its bad...tats wats weird. its confusing yet numbing...its crazy...

its like i go abt my days as if its the only day i hv and yet the moment i wake up and do my things...its seems dat i've wasted tat day...how fulfilling the preps may be but somehow i feel like i'm in a frozen state...oh wells...

to put it simply sometimes i guess distance kills...silence deafens and longing hurts...i've lost this ability to express tat side of me...prolly its been dead since dat day (hahas)...but its weird...its like i dun seem to want to feel dat way...and like shd i? probabaly dats why i'm like this becoz i just put aside real feelings dat i hv to deal with...

to begin with wat feelins do i hv at all?

oh wells its just undescribable for now...

that aside...had this thought while chattin last nite...

As fellow stoners we are ppl's stepping stones to greatness....

cant seem to complete tat but oh wells u'll get wat i mean i suppose come tomolo...hahas