lesss than 24hrs....

right now i m just feeling so lost...lost in my own fears....i fear of freezing up in the first papers tomolo...holding the pen and gettting a blanked out mind...hai compounded with a screwed up family...now dad's gone my two bros are running wild...well one just did on the night he flew...he flew off too! with the dvd player my dads laptop and 2dvd's rented under my name! and knowing his track record...if he don't return it tonite...i hv this feeling i m gonna explode already...coz reli this 2 wks i shdnt be bothered by such things...shd just be focusing on getting wat i want...after all its not wat i love to do...and i hate to hear tat teacher of mine to put me down time and time again....its just another few more hrs...and i feel reli horrible...reli....so dun blame me if i look fierce tomolo and look like i wanna kill somebody...becoz honestly i've reli wanted to kill someone...hai...there goes a commandment broken....


cant seem to write straight now i realised...would my gp suffer? would my econs expressions not work tomolo? rahhhhh!!!!!!!


am sippin a cup of horlicks now...hoping it'll just get rid of this feeling...


*pwerteng linginan...so much reli going on....or is it....

hai...i noe dats wat u reli wanna say rite now....

hai.....
its suppose to relieve right?
hai...
its a release of breathe...
hai...
its a sign of something not right...
hai...
here i go again....
hai...


FOCUS DAMN YOU!!!! Sounding like some wussie!!! cmon u've been through many things b4...why let urself down again and again...u seem to give courage to others why not use some for urself...get it frm ur source u fool!!! and why sigh huh?...dun be pathetic...reli...FOCUS...u'll get through this S**T

still playin this song...lets call it the pre-prelim song...hai...