there it goes...

i never knew i was so attached to gonnjin.diary-x.com till i realised its fate. Its dead. yes. if u dun believe me type http://gonnjin.diary-x.com and u shall see. i thought it would be saved or some sort. BUT somehow the worse came. Well besides the many templates there and the grt functions dat it offers and all...the worse was losing all those memories...all those words...everything!!! i lost an entire yr of rantings...screamings...unreasonability...confessions...bitchings....
haiz...its a blog... dats wat ppl will say it's just a blog.

BUt its not just a blog...its like 2005 in my own words... gone...lost...i noe many of u will feel the same if blogger crashes one day or maybe hotmail or msn or if a bug wipes out ur entire system in ur com...well although its unpleasant...i gotta live with it i suppose...but reli there is now a void in me...i never knew it would be gone...i never knew it would just go...just like dat...leave me after a yr writting in it...a yr in just pouring it all...i'll miss it...even if diary-x resurects or reappears in the near future...even if i make a gonnjin.diary-x.com again...it wont be the same...not the same...it'd be like "melted chocolate" even if u freeze it again it wont have the same form as the first time u set ur eyes on it...

well i guess its normal rite to react like this? treating such a small thing like it was somethin as close as ur mom or dad or siblings. life is priceless...memories are priceless too...but oh wells...i guess it'll never be like diary-x whr u noe its ur own...

well this teaches me a lot...gotta start backin up my writtings...esp the ones in my com...coz i lost reli good stuff in tat blog of mine...reli good stuff...there it goes....and this is my tribute to you my dear blog...even though you're gone...this wont stop me frm moving on...

"it's like fermented tofu...smells so bad but tastes so good"

yeps...

there it goes...
like a puddle it vanishes in the afternoon sun...
leaving a ground devoid of moisture...
even if we fill it up again it wont be the same puddle again...
but it still lingers there somewhere
up above in the clouds in the atmosphere...
it'll be like the air i breathe in to get me going...
there goes a memory...
something i'll never forget...

yea...take a min of silence...and hopefully by the time u read this line...the song would hv started to play.... :)

i'll be fine...i hope i will be....