love covereth all sin...

Triggers. Interesting word psychologists develop. But seriously i was triggered. Boy did it generate a world of reaction. I bet ya I could rattle a whole lot of things to say about the thing that triggered me. But ya as I ranted on and on I realised that what's the point? What did the person do to me to actually deserve such a bombardment and actually stir up hatred? A person I have forgiven and at the instance it was as if that person has thrown the biggest insult at me. I could go on. I could. But honestly who suffers? The person won't but would carry on with his or her life and here I am feeling all grumpy and snappy. What a trade off huh?

Then it struck me. God, that is something I hv to work on. I've not shown love. I've not shown care and compassion. I even did the greatest thing as saying I couldn't care less about that person. Let it be was my attitude. But it shouldn't be. No amount of ranting, no amount of snappiness can change anything. The die is cast. It's done. And wat can I do about it? I feel ashamed admitting this. And honestly I do. It takes me a long time to forget, that's why it was triggered. But yea I need to work on this. I was reminded of Prov 10:12 "Hate stirreth up strifes: but love coverreth all sins."

Love. What a lesson on love. Its true I have the right to be upset even if it's indirect or not direct at all. God had every right to condemn us....we disobeyed Him. Yet what did He do? Love. It's really love. I really need to know how to love till it hurts. I admit I haven really shown love to this person by really uplifting this person in prayer. Nor have I done anything to really show that I care. I go with a spirit of hatred rather than of love....forgive me Lord. So this is one thing I'm gonna work on. LOVE. That covers all sin. So next time I remember this person I will pray for this person rather than just curse the person and rant about what I can't do but only God can.

The reason why we run is because we fear being found out. We love the way we live, our comfort zones determine our actions. When we feel threatened we'll find a scape goat and crucify that person and pin all the blame on that person. We do it all the time. We try to wiggle our way out of tight corners in hope to live another day. But little did we know the truth will find us out because truth sooner or later cannot be contained. But thank God for trials like this that when we look back we'll just realise how foolish we were. That we were once lost in our hopeless state. That our life centered on our own self-centered goals. It wasn't about you Jesus. Neither was it about the WORD. Everything was about me. But I pray that the journey some are taking would lead up to you. Teach me once more to trust in you and not to give up on anyone because I've just done it again. I have to eat back everything I've said. And indeed I am ashamed. You are sovereign and you have a hand in everyone's life. So I pray that I will pray for this person and pray that I forgive that person and at the mention of the persons deeds I will be moved with compassion and fall on my knees and intercede for that person and pray you'll protect that person from harm. Give me a heart.

Remind me of this verse Prov 10:12 "Hatred stirreth up strifes: but love covereth all sins." Even if the other person committed an offense so grievous. Honestly today wasn't that great a testimony. Gee even in sch we'll surely feel the coldness. But ya thank God for my class. I realised that ppl need the lord indeed. I'm writting down one name and I'm gonna pray I reach out to him. Thank God for tonight. What a slap on the face really.... God loved despite of...so should I love despite of. It's difficult manz but if christ who was man can why can't I? Not by my might or strenght but by his spirit. LOVE...