8250th day

funny...i had this gadget on one of homepages, and yea just fancied to write down my date of birth and my expected "last day" on this earth. that is assuming i'd live till my expected last day...

8250 days....(wells nt sure if its accurate considering leap years and such...)

wat a gift to be able to be alive till now!

anyway haven't been updating since the last failed attempt to do so...so wats there to update? wells one thing is for sure, i'm kinda feeling the pressures of actually teaching. Good experience but i realise its more than tat...and i read somewhr that nowadays we're just highly paid nannies...

wells anyway more update, God's reli good. Wells in all circumstances He makes it happen for the best. anyway i know this trying period in school is one thing I gotta get through and pull through. Honestly I feel like a minnow compared to all of my senior teachers. I always ask myself how do they do it? wat is the x-factor they have? sometimes i reli look at myself and wonder whether I'm doin the right things....but thank God for the forgiving staff....for senior teachers and mentors...and somehow my number of periods to sit in lessons hv increased and there are ppl willing to help me out. SO devil get out of my head if u wanna let me look at my insecurities and use it to make me feel so small and insignificant...because God didn't give me a spirit of Fear....

hai...anyways teaching is draining...realised today how drained i was after teachin...reli just felt like bleahx....if i were to kp asking why qns, i'll end up nowhere, but yea i need to pray more...but praise God for this feelings to know that i need Him...

anyway will update more soon...