the story so far....

hmmmm i guess the long mths silence or so just explains how much things have been goin through my head...apart frm missin my family and frens, being in the army is certainly a challenge. Apart frm learnin to become one and getting used to the daily routines, i'd hv to say i've been blessed with a grp of ppl whom i appreciate. Even though they are vulgar, enjoy fhm and maxim and hv different perspectives and takes on life, its interesting of wat a joy it is to be with em, getting to noe em as individuals, how they see life and so. For the past few wks i guess i've been treadin on water, testin and finding ways to stay a float... but i guess now i've found a balance, wells i intend to reli form real frens here, but i'll see how the Lord leads and so far am thankful for the ppl ard me, my bunk mates, platoon mates, the sergeants....

Well if u were to ask me how's army i'd say its fun. hahas tats the first word dat pops in my head. Fun. In wat sense u may ask? I dun reli noe, but i enjoy it? either than the tekan sessions when things dont get done as they shd and the conflictin orders among our commanders, overalll its an experience.

but wat is it i'm learnin and understanding frm all this? i gues i'm learnin more abt myself and also abt how ppl tick, frm the sergeants to commanders and ways of motivatin ppl. i dunnoe i got bite size pieces of thougths stored in boxes this past few wks, and so far haven reli sorted them out...everyday i sense myself posed with challenges, and of course one set by the devil and God himself....

put it this way, when ur stuck with a bunk of guys readin fhm and maxim all day, u would be drawn in to noe wat they are talkin abt, but when u noe abt it then how do i deal with it? for me i've been stayin away frm it...been like spendin my time on my bunk bed readin my bks and sometimes playin away on my frens hp, but some other times the temptation is there, the want is there, yet every other time i pray dat i hv the strength to turn away. BUt its difficult and it is a struggle i face day in day out. another is the language, but yea sometimes i wonder if there were better words to use. Some say tat u hv to use it so ppl will understand, but do we? but oh wells just thoughts for now. Though i do sometimes fall into this trap, i am aware of it, and always try not to use it...

but oh wells its not by my strength alone i can get through this. And still durin this moments He gives a song.

if not one but a few...but reli as i kp pressin on, i noe its just a period of time whr God is shaping and mouldin me to be the man He wants me to be. Pretty ideal dun u think? BUt why not? B4 any metal is removed frm its ore, it must be put through fire? Through the furnace than will u get the pure metal? And I guess even in the field durin the past 6 days whenever i wake up at nite or get aroused frm slp due to the discomforts, i look up in the sky and see the moonlight shinnin down on me and i think how great is He who watches over me. But its amazin lar how bright the moon shines at night... Beautiful indeed...

oh wells tats how my army life is so far....will be back to tell more.....